Page of Wands/Five of Swords reversed. Today I may be tempted to allow my Younger Self to rule the day. And that Five of Swords may be reversed today, but it is still there; this means that my Younger Self can go out to play, but I need to keep an eye on her so that her enthusiasm doesn’t get her hurt.

My Thoth card is the Queen of Swords. Back to the Court Cards again. This Queen is a keen observer, a subtle interpreter and an intense individualist who is confident in her ability to effectively balance the challenges of the day. This card is a nice balance to the enthusiasm of the Page of Wands.

My Legacy card is the Six of Swords reversed. This card is about moving to a better place, but because it is reversed, I am being told that while a move might be a good thing to contemplate, the way is not yet clear before me and the dangers outweigh the benefits of moving forward blindly right now. I need to look before I leap and I need to be optimistic because the potential for moving forward is there, but it has not yet ripened.

My horoscope: “Spirit and soul may seem out of balance today. A part of you may be longing to break from society and live a more spiritual life, but worldly responsibilities and attachment to your current lifestyle might get in your way. These things don't happen overnight, dear Sagittarius. You have to let them develop in their own way, in their own time. Right now, the key is finding balance between the spiritual and the material.”

Simplifying matters:

I like working on my own and having control of what I put out.
I like working close to home.
I like being able to connect with Nature at will, even if this only happens through a window.
I like being able to go out and get a fresh salad for lunch.
I like to write, draw, make jewelry, or anything else that involves creativity.
I like to work with and learn about the human energy field and the operations of the physical body.
I like learning about the human psyche and expressing that knowledge through the Tarot.

I don’t like having to get up early when I want to sleep in a little more (to make it simple, I am not an early morning person).
I don’t like having to be working for a specific block of time that is exactly the same every day, whether there is work to be done or not.
I don’t like not being able to adjust or split up or shift that time in order to enable me to do other things.
I don’t mind doing clerical work but I don’t like the way it shuts my brain down.

I need to be able to find a way to incorporate the things I like into my career. I don’t mind working hard for long hours when those hours are invested in work about which I am enthusiastic.

I need to be able to incorporate these things without having to go to school in order to do this. For instance, I would love to become a certified massage therapist, but I would have to take a block of time out from my day job (months) in order to do this, and I can’t afford to spend money on tuition and not get paid a regular salary.

I need to find the right audience for my skills.

Okay, that doesn’t simplify matters that much, it just makes it easier to see what I like, don’t like and need. There just has to be a career for me out there that brings in enough money to live on and feeds my soul at the same time! I am determined to discover it. *bangs fist on desk*

Both my cards and my horoscope today are telling me that I can’t give up; even if it seems that I am not making progress, I am.

One thing I am certain of: the internet will have some answer or tool or support for me. The internet will be a part of whatever it is that I am meant to do, and it very well may be a part in my discovering exactly what it is that I am meant to do.

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