Friday, June 9, 2017

April 26, 2017: New Moon in Taurus

Today is the New Moon in Taurus, my rising sign.  From what I have read online, this New Moon is a good one for beginning the first stages of some kind of manifestation.  There are no aspects with the planets, so besides the correspondences of a New Moon (beginnings) and Taurus (which is ruled by Venus and the Moon, and corresponds with the element of Earth, foundations, health, prosperity and fertility), anything goes.  This New Moon is offering me some general potential, undedicated to any specific direction or task.  Hmmm . . . what should I do with it?

My Dreams of Gaia New Moon card is The Crone reversed.  This is the number 6 card of the Major Arcana of this deck, and it appears often for me, both upright and reversed.  The keywords are feminine power, fearlessness, authenticity, individuality, independence, new purpose, freedom, and shadow self.  This is such a cool card; it tells of being aware of Purpose and it encourages having the courage to fulfill that Purpose, no matter what it is.  In a way, this is a companion card for the reversed Four of Air I threw the other day, because that card hints at what needs to be done in order to manifest my Purpose, and this one encourages me to understand my Purpose, to re-look (even if I think I’ve already understand all there is to be understood).

Before beginning my Pathworking, I’m going to take a bit of time to review each of the ten sephiroth (or “emanations”) of the Tree of Life, kind of setting up a foundation.  The Tree of Life itself is seen as a set of archetypes or correspondences, and I could spend lots of time just talking about the Tree generally.  If we see the sephiroth as emanations or transmissions, we need to see ourselves as receivers of those emanations or transmissions. The information presented is layered; we need to make our way through the layers in order to understand what is revealed to us as we go deeper (always keeping in mind that mis-information appears in order to test our ability to think independently rather than accepting what we are told as “written-in-stone”).  I do need to remember that in order to achieve understanding, I need to chop wood and carry water.  

The Tree is set up with its roots in the physical realm and its uppermost branches in a realm that is almost beyond understanding.  As I stated above, there are all kinds of things to be learned about each sephira.  But understanding the interactions between the individual sephira, pairs of sephiroth, triangles, and all the other multi-directional flows, can be truly exciting.

Let the Pathworking begin!


Tuesday, May 30, 2017

April 21, 2017: I'm back, and with a new focus


So here I am, returning from the void of moving.  I am mostly unpacked, the dust is settling, and I am crawling out of the Dark Night of the Soul that is the result of the complete chaos and upheaval of a physical world move.  

Spring is in the air (although Winter clings stubbornly, still bringing chill in the air), and the early and brave flowers are in bloom.  My head is finally learning, and I am being drawn back into the Work.  

The final stage of the Great Work is called Coagulation.  Coagulations occurs when all of the other stages have been experienced, digested and understood (and that might take more than one trip through a particular stage).  According to a Llewellyn newsletter article on the Great Work, not many Seekers reach this final level of complete integration.  Have I successfully completed Coagulation?  I don’t know.  But I think it is time to move on and step away from the Great Work, at least for now.  I’m sure that when it is needed, I will be drawn back once again.  

Because I am moving on to a new focus, I am changing the way I work with the Dreams of Gaia Tarot.  I will now shuffle all cards together.  I will attempt to draw cards for Esbats and Sabbats, and ion other days as well.  I will be keeping my Significator for this deck, the Faith card, number XXIV.

And what will I be doing next?  I was writing the monthly submission for my column, Tarot Talk, in PaganPages, working on The Hierophant, and got snagged down the rabbit hole of Pathworking.  I’ve done this before but I believe I did not make it through all 22 of the Paths.  The time has come to begin again.  

In honor of this new endeavor, I threw a Dreams of Gaia card and got the Four of Air reversed.  What a perfect description of the state of my mind these past months!  The keywords for this card are structure, routine, order, patterns, discipline, organization, understanding, and productivity.  And I have had none of these, due to my move.  This card in an upright position explains the need for order and structure, especially if there are tasks to be accomplished (and when are there ever **not** tasks to be accomplished?) and the need for routine, ritual and consistency if we want to be productive.  

The Four of Air in a reversed position is a bit of a warning for me; it tells me that setting this intention today is all well and good, but if I don’t reestablish my routines and rituals, all will be for naught.  I need to impose the same work ethic on this endeavor that I imposed on the move (as I am almost completely unpacked).  I also need to continue my purge of clutter, getting rid of the habits or belongings that might distract me from this next important step.  

It feels good to be back!!


Friday, May 26, 2017

January 3, 2017: A brief pause while I pack and move

My Dreams of Gaia card for today is the Ten of Earth.  I’ve had this one numerous times since beginning to work with this deck, both upright and reversed.  The image on this one is serene, filled with bounty; I am particularly drawn to the Mona Lisa smile on the girl in the image; just the tiniest uplift of the corner of her mouth is the only evidence of the serenity, peace and confidence within..  The keywords for this one are synthesis, harmony, reward, inner peace, grace, highest good, and authenticity.  The message is clear: after making it successfully through all of the Earth cards thus far, we have achieved balance in all aspects of life – career, home, family, self – and they are all coming together as an integrated whole, reflecting the well-being and connectiveness within.  This card also tells me that at least for now, I’ve created a balance between home, career, and family, a balance that is sourced from some hard work on my part.  

This balance will be my foundation over the next three or four months, as I prepare to move.  After all, the best way too deal with a huge change in life is with confidence and a strong foundation.  

I will return once my move is completed and I am ready to complete the Great Work.


Wednesday, May 24, 2017

January 1, 2017: Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!  Okay the time has come to get used to typing a new year, 2017 instead of 2016.

My New Year’s Day Minor Arcana card is the Nine of Water.  Oh, this one is perfect for a new day, a new month and a new year.  The image on this card shows a woman surrounded by darkness, looking upward toward the beams of silvery light that are shining on her from above.  Such powerful symbolism: moving out of the darkness that is the past, emotional stress, or even physical-world challenge, and into some new way of being.  We don’t know just yet what that new way of being is, but it is bright and attractive.  The keywords for this card are illumination, acceptance, openness, emotional enlightenment, strength, courage, fear, and ignorance.  This card talks about light being borne into the Void, and the ways that emotional light can open our hearts and break the cycle of heavy emotions.  The Nine of Waters also reminds us that we need to shine that light into the darkest of corners, for denying pain is not healthy.  Better that we examine our memories, accept them all, and then (once we know them intimately) release those that no longer serve us. 

I love the image on this card, and its meaning is particularly relevant to me today.  The holiday season will be over by the end of the day, and now my focus is on getting ready to move.  These moving preparations are varied, from purging things I no longer use, to donating things that are still usable, to finishing my RYT-500 training, and of course, to finishing the Great Work.

To me, this pause during the holiday season gives me a chance to solidify what I’ve already discovered about myself, and it gives me a chance to put into practice new habits.  See?  Perfect timing!


Saturday, May 20, 2017

December 29, 2016: New Moon in Capricorn, dark days of Yuletide, and moving forward

December 29, 2016:

I am deep into the dark days of Yuletide, spending much of my free time looking inward, examining my subtle body and my emotions and feelings, so I can determine what I have accomplished, what I need to let go of, and where I should focus as this calendar year comes to an end.  I have done okay, doing less than I wanted in some areas, and yet accomplishing more in unexpected ways.  I’ve not journaled or posted for a few days because I felt that I needed to let things simmer for a bit.

I did not expect that this time working through the Great Work would affect me the way it has.  I am still dealing with the effects of Saturn, first within my Second Saturn Return, and now because Saturn is in my sun sigh, Sagittarius, causing lethargy and times of being very foggy-brained.  I think my efforts to function and evolve despite the fog have made me stronger.  

Going through the Watchers, working even deeper with my Elemental Guides, and including chakra and Reiki work almost daily, have deepened and broadened my own personal practice.  These connections are open in a low-grade way through most of the day, and it is now very easy for me to actively intensify the connection.  I’ve created a strong conduit to the non-physical entities in my life, and a strong conduit to Deity.  

Today is the New Moon in Capricorn, the last New Moon of this calendar year.  My Dreams of Gais Major Arcana card for this New Moon is Love, reversed. I can’t understand why I am getting so many reversed cards lately; what message am I missing?  Anyway, Capricorn, the tenth sign of the zodiac, is a Cardinal earth sign, ruled by Saturn.  Capricorn people are stable, hard-working, practical, methodical, and ambitious, never losing sight of goals regardless of how many obstacles or distractions are in the way.  Capricorn people are a bit stoic and rigid, and they will stick to their beliefs despite convincing evidence to the contrary.  More than anything else they enjoy power, respect, and authority, and they are willing to toe the line for as long as it takes to achieve those goals.  The Capricorn personality is one that is firmly grounded in reality; here is the voice of reason in a chaotic world.  A Capricorn person may seem unfriendly, arrogant, or without humor to outsiders, but remember the image of this astrological sign has a fish’s tail.  The emotions are there, just hidden within that inhibited exterior.  As far as material wealth is concerned, Capricorn approaches finances with prudence, planning, and discipline, and thus, there are not many Capricorns who are lacking in physical-world resources.

This New Moon is perhaps warning me that right now I need to control my emotions and not allow visions to distract me from the day-to-day tasks of the day.  The interesting little wild card here is that Mercury is also in Capricorn, and it is retrograde.  Eeeep!  Expect the unexpected, I guess!

Love is the XII card of the Majors; its keywords are love, infatuation, love for self, confidence, love for life, and expansion.  The image on this card shows a young woman with dark hair, a flowered crown, large white wings, and a heart shining with brilliant golden rays.  Behind her is a beautiful Celtic knot, and on either side of her are golden butterflies.  A beautiful yellow flower with verdant green leaves is at her feet.  The sky behind her is a rainbow of colors, from white, yellow, pink and purple toward the horizon up past fluffy and filmy clouds to a dark star-studded sky at the top of the card.  Love and the experiencing of love is the fourth reason for being within this deck (the others are Knowledge, Wisdom, Healing, Union, Self, Abundance and Destiny); this card encourages me to experience all kinds of love. The companion book describes this as experiencing love “. . . in all of its forms — from co-dependent and need-based love,  to big, unconditional Universal Love —and to understand that love comes in many different forms and guises.”  Perhaps I might understand why this card is reversed today; after all, Love is huge and manifests in many, many ways.  Love can make us amazingly compassionate and giving beings, and love can destroy a person and break him or her into tiny pieces.  

I wonder if this card is reminding me today that for many reasons, now is the time for me to begin a huge change.  Yes there are things and people that I love and don’t want to release, but if events are pushing me in a different way, then release them I must.  If I fight this, things might get uncomfortable.  

Yeah, back to reality.  Already. 


Thursday, May 18, 2017

December 21, 2016: Yule Blessings!

Today is the Winter Solstice, Yule.  It is the longest night and shortest day, the time when the Oak King and the Holly King battle once more, but this time the Oak King wins the battle, and the Waxing Year begins.  However, the renewal of light is not apparent at the beginning of the Waxing Year.  Twilight comes early still, and dawn is still slow to arrive.  I found this beautiful writing online; it really sums up this quiet, dark time of me:

"When winter comes to a woman’s soul, she withdraws into her inner self, her deepest spaces. She refuses all connection, refutes all arguments that she should engage in the world. She may say she is resting, but she is more than resting: She is creating a new universe within herself, examining and breaking old patterns, destroying what should not be revived, feeding in secret what needs to thrive.

Winter women are those who bring into the next cycle what should be saved. They are the deep conservators of knowledge and power. Not for nothing did ancient peoples honor the grandmother. In her calm deliberateness, she winters over our truth, she freezes out false-heartedness.

Look into her eyes, this winter woman. In their gray spaciousness you can see the future. Look out of your own winter eyes. You too can see the future."

By Patricia Monaghan

My Yule Sabbat Dreams of Gaia Major Arcana card is Thought, the number XVIII card, in a reversed position.  The keywords for this card are thought, reality, power, attention, focus, attraction, positivity, negativity, and Universal Law.  I have a huge connection to this card, because it is telling me that if I think, then I exist.  I’ve been through this, been through that moment when I realize that all of reality, everything around me, might just be created by my mind.  I had to find peace with this, and come to understand that even if the world is a creation of my mind, it has validity to me.  My thoughts have power; after all, they’ve created this reality, created it so that I can perceive everything around me with my physical senses.  That is the reason this card has such powerful influences on our lives; Thought creates reality.  The cool thing is that scientists don’t quite know why we think just yet.  They don’t know how the whole thinking process works.  Thought is not just a mental activity; it can also influence the way we live and the way we perceive all parts of life, both on the conscious and the unconscious levels.  Power!


Wednesday, May 17, 2017

December 14, 2016: Distillation and A Sore Back


Things have been busy!  I attended the PBT Solstice Salon this past Saturday evening.  As always, being with this extended group is a healing experience.  I love the fact that the group consists of many varieties of people with various and inspiring lives; we all get together with open minds and open hearts, and we create and strengthen valuable and permanent connections.  

I’ve also been suffering from a sore back, since last weekend.  We had our family holiday party, a formal sit-down dinner for 17, and somehow, this year I threw my lower back out.  Yes, me, “Miss Yoga,” threw her back out.  It has taken a bit of time to finally improve, but after a week caution (and moments of forgetting that my back is tender, and setting myself back a bit), I will finally attempt some very gentle stretches today.  I’m crossing my fingers that I will be able to do this.

I began today to read a bit about the next step in the Great Work, Distillation.  Distillation is defined as the process of purifying a liquid through heating and then cooling.  This process can actually extract volatile components of a mixture.  The process involves heating a liquid, and then collecting the vapors or steam that arise and the cooling the vapors until they become liquid.  A “distillate” is considered a concentrated essence. 

This process is also defined in a less literal sense, as the extraction of essential meaning or most important aspects of something.  Also, the process can be refined to extrude elements with different boiling points.  This means a chemist can extract different ingredients from one mixture, assuming those ingredients have different boiling points.

Alcohol can be produced by distillation, and if alcohol is seen as “spirits” and thus as a correspondence to Spirit, then we could say that Spirit is created by this process.  

My Dreams of Gaia card for today is the Three of Water.  The keywords for this card are satisfaction, pleasure,. Joy, hopefulness, anticipation, attachment, expectation, and disappointment.  This card is seen as a positive affirmation, an assurance that things are going well and success is on its way.  It’s okay to take a moment to look back at what has been already accomplished in order to verify and assure that hard-won foundation is still in place, but I should not look back for too long.  Instead, my eyes should be forward, and I should allow myself to anticipate good things.