Monday, January 23, 2017

November 10, 2016: Yes the darkness is daunting.

My Dreams of Gaia card for today is the Six of Fire reversed.  The keywords for the Six of Fire are healing, meditation, negotiation, arbitration, truce, boundaries, support, and diplomacy.  In an upright position, this card tells of a time when communication and diplomacy are needed to end a conflict.  In order to end an argument, both sides first need to be able to be listened to and to hear and understand the other side’s point of view.  It does not surprise me that my Six of Fire is reversed today.  This card in a reversed position tells of “. . . an unwillingness to come to the discussion table and resolve a problem that is not only affecting you, but those around you also.  You would rather fight and win, than to give an inch.”  Ho boy, does that describe the situation in the US right now.  I am being told that even if I am correct and justified in my opinion, by standing firm I may very well cause harm.

Still struggling, but I’m feeing a bit better today.  The darkness is lifting; my country is strong and perhaps, just perhaps, it will survive this.

“The night can be daunting, but it is also deeply healing. May you honor the darkness that precedes your rebirth. May you find comfort in its mystery, reminding yourself that enjoying the ride is as important as directing your energy to the tasks at hand. May you see the direct connection between healing the oldest wounds you carry and experiencing the current success of all your work endeavors. May you be continually encouraged to flush out the murky waters of your past, creating free-flowing streams that feed all you do. May you feel free to flush out what is stagnant, refresh the wells you draw from, and replenish the sources that soothe you. May this season be one of healing the projections that you tend to place on others. May this season be one that helps you to reclaim the pieces of your heart that you gave to those who could not hold it. May this season be one of collecting the fragments of self that are still strewn about so that you feel well-collected. Called back in. Corralled. Cared for.  May you revel in your imperfect shape, explore your jagged edges and proclaim your wholeness, no matter the holes in it.”  Chani Nicholas


Wednesday, January 4, 2017

November 9, 2016: Election Day Plus One

My Dreams of Gaia card for today is the Two of Fire reversed, and oh boy, does this make sense.  The keywords for this card are power sharing, mentorship, partnerships, equality, teamwork, mutual interests, ambition, and control.  The card in an upright position represents power sharing, teamwork, and manifesting goals by working together.  My card is reversed, and the connection with this day is obvious.  The reversed meaning is an unequal power exchange or a struggle to have power over another.

The election has ended in a frightening way.  To me, both candidates are flawed.  The Democratic candidate blurs the lines between ethical behavior and privacy, sometimes to the point of paranoia.  The Republican candidate is a xenophobic, misogynistic, bigoted loudmouth who is empty of ethics and unable to filter the words that come out of his mouth.  And yes, the Republican won the election.  I am actually frightened.  I am a woman who demands control over her own health care and who chooses to manifest her sexuality in her own way without tolerating patriarchy or glorifying sexual assault.  My son and stepson are gay, and a good friend of mine is trans.  I practice a non-Abrahamic, non-monotheistic religion.  And I feel fear.  I can’t imagine how Muslim Americans feel today.  Unequal power exchange?  Ya think?

I do have hope, though.  Our democracy has lasted for over 240 years, through revolution, civil war, two world wars, and multiple armed conflicts.  It has survived scandals and upheavals.  In fact, our democracy has grown and evolved through these tests, and become even better.  It can survive this, too.  I just don’t know how well I will do.

I need to remember that while my Two of Fire is reversed, it is there.  That means the cooperation and power sharing represented by the upright card can be manifested.  I will shield myself, and I will do my best to manifest good things around me.


Tuesday, January 3, 2017

November 5, 2016: Back from vacation

November 5, 2016:

I am home from vacation and still struggling with the mornings; but no worries because my favorite holiday of the entire year is this weekend: Fall Back Sunday!  Tomorrow morning the clocks move toward a schedule that works so wonderfully with my personal body clock.  Oh how I wish the clocks could stay this way!  I also will hopefully feel recovered from California.  That three hour difference does matter when moving back East.

I went for bread this morning, for the first time in several weeks.  It was good to be there, to see Elisabeth and Wesley.  And yum, fresh bread and salad greens.

I also went for a massage.  Yep, I’m officially hooked!  This time the massage was a bit more gentle, but just as effective.  I think I will try different therapists and get to know them all.  I have been working with my chakras, together with some of my Sacred Mists friends.  I also did a full yoga practice.  I think I’m back to normal, which happened faster than I thought it would.

Today I am doing a heavy cleaning inside the Blue Moon house.  Tomorrow I will finish what I don’t complete today, and then move out into my beloved garden.  Which in a way is very fitting, as I can feel Cernunos a lot, as all Nature prepares for its Winter sleep.  Fermentation, anyone?

My Dreams of Gaia Minor Arcana card for today is the Ten of Fire.  Talk about synchronicity.  The image on this one shows a man surrounded by flames, with each of his chakras glowing brilliantly!  The keywords for this one are doing, self-mastery, mastery, evolution, enlightenment, lightwork, lightbeing, and discipline.  This card tells not only of having mastered a craft, but also having mastered the Self.  This one is about true integration, because that is really the only way to master a craft.  Awareness and an ability to wield personal power comes with responsibility, because we can’t unlearn or unsee what we learn or see as we evolve; we need to integrate everything and make it our own in a good way.  Being the master is not about being the best, it is about continuing to do your best and to evolve.  No resting on my laurels today.


Monday, January 2, 2017

October 31, 2016: Samhain

October 31, 2016:

The day before yesterday, I went to a local spa and had an hour reflexology massage.  Yesterday, we decided to go back to the massage salon and this time we had a 90 minute full body massage.  Oh I am getting addicted to this!!

Today is the Sabbat of Samhain, the Third Harvest that focuses on the clearing of the fields for Winter, and also focuses on honoring the achievements and experiences of the past year and the ancestors who built the foundation upon which I exist.  This can be considered the Pagan New Year, and for some reason this year Samhain feels like the closing of one door with the other door not opened yet.  I seem to be in a kind o limbo, waiting for some shift or life-changing movement. All I can do is keep my awareness level as peak as possible.

My Dreams of Gaia Samhain Major Arcana card is the number XV card, Abundance, in a reversed position.  The keywords for this card are abundance, consciousness, giving, receiving, energy, love and appreciation.  The concept presented for this card that I really like is the achievement of abundance consciousness.  I think I am well on the way to getting and maintaining this, because I do try to be aware of the beauty around me, aware of my family, friends and loved ones, and aware of the bounty of my life.  The LWB for the Dreams of Gaia Tarot describes an abundance consciousness like this: “A person with an abundance consciousness is one who is always hopeful, seeks a fair and equal exchange of energy, and sees potential and opportunity in all experiences.”  Abundance is one of the seven reasons for being presented by the Dreams of Gaia Tarot, so this card is an important one, especially because it is reversed.  The word that seems to jump out at me when I read the meanings for the card is “trust.”  This is something I work with occasionally, and Samhain is certainly a great time to not only acknowledge the gifts and opportunities that have come to me over the past Turn, but to trust that gifts and opportunities will continue to present themselves as I move forward.

I guess the best thing to do right now, as I finish up my California vacation, is to continue to believe that opportunities will present themselves.  I can do that.  


Sunday, January 1, 2017

October 27, 2016: Vallejo and Brugmansia

October 27, 2016:

My Dreams of Gaia card is the Eleven of Water, one of the balancing and realignment cards of this deck.  This one is titled “Emotion/Intellect” and these are the two opposites focused upon.  The keywords for this card are emotion/intellect, love, fear, expression, suppression, head, heart, ease, and dis-ease.  This card asks us to determine what motivates us, fear or love.  In the end, the answer is usually that both motivate us.  Live is never all pleasant or easily predicted, and this card asks us to remember that if we balance as much as we can, and suppress the least, we will be able to express all emotions in a healthy and beneficial way.

Today we walked around Ellen’s neighborhood so I could look at all the great plants growing in front yards.  There are houses with jade plants as shrubs, and all kinds of cactus and succulents of all shapes and sizes growing all over the place.  Then I had a huge moment of “yay!!” because I saw brughmansias growing in yards!  I saw several that were the size of small trees with lovely yellow flowers.  Gorgeous!!  Ellen then said that if I enjoyed walking the neighborhood that much, we needed to go to the University of California botanical gardens.  OMG, I was in heaven!   Then I relocated to Vallejo.


Thursday, December 29, 2016

October 26, 2016: First day in California, walking the labyrinth

I arrived yesterday in California, had lunch in Sausolito with Ellen, my sister-in-law, and then went to an interesting presentation at Mills College, created by an artist friend of Ellen’s.  I crashed and burned by about 9 pm local time (midnight my time zone), which is usual and customary for me when I fly west.

Today, we hiked in the hills of Oakland at Sibley Park on a beautiful sunny afternoon, and even walked a labyrinth.  The labyrinth was located in a small canyon that was positively magickal.  I felt the presence of some Earth elementals for sure, and a hint of something else.

My Dreams of Gaia card for my first full day in California is the Nine of Water reversed. The Dreams of Gaia Nine of Waters is a beautiful card, beautiful in its darkness and severity.  The card shows the image of a woman surrounded by the darkness of night, looking upward towards a glimmering silver light.  Colors are absent (almost the way that moonlight bleaches out or changes color), and shadows are everywhere.  The keywords for this card are illumination, acceptance, openness, emotional enlightenment, strength, courage, fear and ignorance.  This card in an upright position reminds us that emotions of all kinds leave imprints on our hearts, minds, and even our physical bodies, and thus they can have long-lasting impacts.  These impacts can be either subconscious or conscious in nature, and it is often the subconscious imprints that cause the most problems.  The solution is to look to the light and allow love to heal.  This is not a pleasant process, but because my Nine of Water is reversed, I need to be aware that I just might not want to deal with all this stuff now; after all I’m on vacation.  Yeah, I can hear Satevis laughing.


Thursday, December 22, 2016

October 22, 2016: California trip and summing up the Watchers

October 22, 2016:

Time to get my brain clear again.  I am leaving early Tuesday morning for my yearly trip to California.  I will be spending a few days with my sister-in-law, then a few days with my sister-of-the-heart.  I will get to see once again some other fellow Misties, plus meet face-to-face with one more.  I’m trying to devote time this weekend to cleaning out stuff in preparation for The Big Move.  The Hubs and I have a lot of work to get squared away, too, before I leave.  Busy, busy, busy!

I did carve out a bit of time to throw a Dreams of Gaia card, and got the Twelve of Air, also called The Scribe.  The keywords for this card are record-keeper, information, knowledge, tradition, history, personal history, preservation, and censorship.  The Scribe is described as “a priestly man, although not necessarily a religious one,” and I get that.  The Scribe values knowledge and wisdom, and he does not want them tainted by personal belief.  He reveres books as they are repositories of knowledge, and he feels that all cultures and all information should be documented in the name of the highest good of all.  Accuracy is important to him, so much that he is willing to document several perspectives of an issue in order to record an accurate big picture.  He loves reading, but he also loves writing, and he encourages me to continue documenting my own experiences.  The image on The Scribe is another example of the brilliance of Ravynne Phelan. The Scribe is chock-full of powerful symbolism.  The Scribe has gray hair and a gray beard; he looks older but not infirm, rather he appears healthy and confident.  He has antlers adorned with feathers, beads, and ribbons inscribed with letters and symbols; there are two ribbons inscribed with letters and symbols coming from his eyes, and another ribbon coming out of his mouth.  Below him are two Australian white ibis (fitting, as the artist is Australian) and a bee; above him is a scarab and a set of wings.  I love this card!

In keeping with the “cleaning up” theme of the day, here is more summing up of Watcher information.  This time, the Archangels; I’ve gathered what I learned, and then created keywords.  I must offer one condition to all this information: Archangels, and all Angels for that matter, are not human.  This means they have their own agendas, and those agendas may not be in line with what we as humans perceive as our own highest good.

Haftorang and Fomalhaut are associated with Archangel Gabriel.  Archangel Raphael and Venant/Regulus were considered to be the leaders of the four Watchers or Guardians or Royal Stars for millennia, but with the advent of the “age of man,” the leadership has fallen to the more human of the Archangels, Gabriel.  Remember that in the New Testament of Christianity, it is Archangel Gabriel who announces the birth of Christ.  Archangel Gabriel is responsible for communication, new beginnings, and strength; Archangel Gabriel assists us to connect with Divine Love, and to tune into the “frequency” or “vibration” of this love so our subtle body can be attuned to that love.  He also assists us in identifying what we are **not** so these parts of us and our invalid beliefs may be released, enabling us to become the best we can be.  My keywords for Archangel Gabriel are love and inspiration.

Tishtya and Aldebaron are associated with Archangel Michael.  Archangel Michael's main characteristics are exceptional strength and courage.  He fights so that good prevails over evil, he protects and defends people who love Deity, and he empowers believers to set their religious or spiritual faith on fire with passion. Archangel Michael is often pictured wielding a sword or a spear, symbolizing his role as a leader in spiritual battles.  People sometimes ask him for help to gather the courage needed to face and overcome their fears, to find the strength to resist temptations, and to stay safe in dangerous situations.  Archangel Michael is also considered a key angel of death; his job is weighing people’s souls on scales.  Archangel Michael can assist us in learning to release fear or worry.  My keywords for Archangel Michael are courage and fortitude.

Venant and Regulus are associated with Archangel Raphael.  Raphael is the Archangel of Healing, full of compassion for people who are struggling physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually. Archangel Raphael was given the assignment to preside over every suffering and affliction of humans, and he was given the power to heal the Earth and the beings who reside there of the maladies of mankind.  He is associated with compassion, joy and laughter.  Archangel Raphael can offer assistance in overcoming addictions, in finding love, and for safe and healthy travels.  The symbol most associated with Raphael is the caduceus, and he is a patron to those in the medical professions, counselors, pharmacists, and patients, as well as to travelers, young people, and those in love.  Archangel Raphael also offers healing through guidance, through nudging us in the direction that will allow us to learn to heal ourselves. Archangel Raphael appears in the Book of Enoch once the Fallen Angels are removed from the population, and tasked with restoring and healing the Earth.  Islam sees Raphael as the angel who will announce judgment day.  Archangel Raphael is also seen as a master of music who is able to sing praises to God in many languages.  My keywords for Archangel Raphael are healing and empathy.

Satevis and Antares are associated with Archangel Uriel.  Archangel Uriel has communicated with me in the past and I have worked with him.  Archangel Uriel is the Angel of wisdom who shines light into the darkness of confusion, and who helps us to tap into our inner wisdom, into the knowledge and information coded into our physical DNA and into the knowledge and information stored in the “akashic records.”  Archangel Uriel offers mental and emotional understanding.  Like The High Priestess of the Tarot, Archangel Uriel is usually depicted holding a book or a scroll in one hand, and a flame (representing Divine Truth) in the other hand.  It was Archangel Uriel who warned Noah of the Flood, and it was Archangel Uriel who checked the doorways of homes throughout Egypt for lambs blood on the night the plague striking the first-born was activated.  Legend has it that Archangel Uriel rescued John the Baptist when King Herod ordered the massacre of young boys when he learned of the birth of Jesus.  My keywords for Archangel Uriel are wisdom and truth.