Nine of Cups reversed/Page of Cups reversed. The Nine of Cups (cusp of Aquarius, “I know,” friendships, the group, cause-oriented, and Pisces, “I believe,” feelings, duality, suffering, soul growth) in an upright position is about emotional satisfaction and the ability to find pleasure in feelings and emotions, and in our expectations for the day.  My card is reversed, and this really does make sense to me.  Today is not about satisfaction; it is about digesting the incredible experience I have had over the past few days. The Page of Cups corresponds to Libra (“we are,” partnerships, balance, cooperation), Scorpio (“I desire,” intensity compulsion, mystery) and Sagittarius (“I seek,” philosophic, adventurous, blundering), is very emotional, dreamy, social, and connected to the inner voice.  My Page is reversed today as well, and perhaps the message of these two reversed cards is that I need to be open to what I’m feeling rather than denying those feelings.  I am no less brave for experiencing some turmoil now that all is well and I am safe.  I should not fight this, but accept it without judgment.

My Thoth card is the Ace of Swords reversed. The Ace of Swords (Capricorn, “I build,” ambition, caution authority, cunning, Aquarius and Pisces, “I believe,” feeling, duality, soul growth, artistic) in an upright position tells of the potential within the day to effectively use mental or intellectual abilities. The thing about these abilities is that they sometimes cause a bit of isolation; after all, they are experienced within, and hard to share with others.  This card can be a bit on the passive side too.  The ideas are still potential only and not yet manifested.  My Ace is reversed, however, and while I may not be able to cut through the confusion today, just being aware that there is confusion to be cut through may be enough of a catalyst to bring future results.

My Legacy card is the Five of Cups reversed, flavored by the Page of Wands. The Five of Cups (Mars, action, aggression, drive, in Scorpio, “I desire,” intense, controlling, mysterious, obsessive) tells of an emotional setback, or perhaps a perception that support is lacking.  And the fact that it is reversed is validating my first two Cups cards.  Fear and isolation are not factors any more, although I am still experiencing the effects of my fear and isolation of the past few days.  I have endured, and these uncomfortable feelings will be fading.  The Page of Wands (Cancer, “I feel,” sensitive, tenacious, nurturing, moody; Leo, “I am,” passionate, dramatic noble egotistical; and Virgo, “I serve,” practical, analytical, work and service oriented) is the spark that might end up creating a conflagration, and oh boy, do I need this Page’s optimism.  He applauds me for having courage, and for allowing myself to experience these past few days.  He tells me to congratulate myself, to celebrate rather than feel uncomfortable.  I have stretched the envelope, and that might bring temporary discomfort, but the end result will be exciting.

My 6-digit date number is 8, the number that tells of a conscious and deliberate response to the pause and beginning of degeneration of the number 7, in order to maintain for a bit longer the balance and harmony of the number 6.

My horoscopes: “A love relationship seems more stable than usual today, Sagittarius. The security wraps itself around you like a blanket as you consider the events leading up to this new sense of commitment. You and your partner may spend the evening doing nothing more than being together, which feels great! Mark this day in your memory so you can recall it whenever your insecurities get the better of you.”

And: “Today, you might suffer from an irresistible impulse to put your home in order. You might want to give it a good and thorough cleaning, or you might want to do a little decorating, or perhaps make some minor but necessary repairs. A new decoration, either a sculpture of some kind or a painting or tapestry for the wall, might inspire this desire. By the time you're done, your place should look fabulous. Go to it!”

My Shadowscapes Insight is regarding the Knight of Swords.  This Knight is not about emotions or compassion; he uses mainly logic and is difficult to dissuade from his purpose.  He does not even entertain the tiniest possibility of defeat, and he is a beacon to all who are looking for a leader. 

I took a bike ride on Violet earlier this afternoon.  Thankfully, the berms at Point Park are intact.  We’ve lost some sand at our beach by Jefferson Street, but this is how the beach looked after Hurricane Irene, so I am confident our beach will be better by summer.  Sand removal is still happening on Beach Drive, now up in Poverty Beach.  Hopefully by tomorrow, I can bike up there and check things out.  I also put the porch furniture back out, so my living room nest is starting to disappear.  I am almost sorry to see the living room go back to normal.

I feel strange today, as if everything has tilted or shifted.  Besides the ongoing sand cleanup, it is a normal (but quiet) Fall day in Cape May.  Yet everything is different.  I feel the way I felt after my Reiki attunements, as if my own senses and the ways I perceive the world around me have changed. 

I have felt The Shift coming these past months; all of my “woo-woo” family and friends have felt the approach of “something.”  This hybrid storm seems to be a catalyst of sorts. 

Maybe it is just the aftermath of experiencing the hugely churning energies of the past few days.  Maybe those energies have sand-blasted my senses, making them supercharged.  But it is interesting to me that this storm happened as Samhain approached, the final Fertility Sabbat and the re-setting of the Wheel of the Year.  This is the time that focuses on the Death card of the Tarot Major Arcana, which corresponds with Water (cold/binds and wet/adapts, and sensitive, imaginative energy that strives to stay the same or take the same course), Scorpio, Nun (fish head; liberation), and the Path between Tiphareth (the hub of the creation process where energies harmonize and focus to illuminate and clarify) and Netzach (the stimulating factors of emotion and inspiration), and tells of natural change that cannot be stopped.  In hind sight, I never came close to death over these past days, but there were a few moments when I was a bit nervous for a brief time.  I talked myself down from the ledge, but I could have easily panicked; I could have let the adrenaline rush control me. 

I have reached some tipping point over these past days, since Bob left for Hackensack at about 12 on Saturday afternoon.  The way my life essence fits into my body has shifted.  What will happen?  How will I change?  I don’t know, but change I will.  I can feel it happening already.

I have gathered my blog entries from Hurricane Sandy into one post, and placed it on my Dancing Sparkles FaceBook page.  You can access all the entries in one place, here: https://www.facebook.com/notes/dancing-sparkles/my-hurricane-sandy-journal/371828956237918 .

I just walked around my garden a bit, tapping into the Fall energies all around today.  I came across a few mushrooms, looking like tiny beach umbrellas seen from a plane.  Looks like the garden Faeries had a hurricane party!!

Samhain Blessings!

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