My Thoth card
is the Princess of Cups reversed. The Princess/Page of Cups corresponds to
Libra (“we are,” partnerships, balance, cooperation), Scorpio (“I desire,”
intensity compulsion, mystery) and Sagittarius (“I seek,” philosophic,
adventurous, blundering) is very emotional, dreamy, social, and connected to
the inner voice. My Princess/Page
My Legacy card
is the Two of Swords, flavored by the Six of Wands reversed. . The Two of Swords (Moon, feelings and
emotions, illusion, imagination, in Libra, “We are,” partnerships, balance,
cooperation) can represent a time of not looking or of shutting out the world. Most of the time, the barriers
constructed in concert with the energies of this card are self-created; the
important thing about these barriers is that it is okay to be shut up for a
bit, but I can’t allow the barriers to stay in place indefinitely. The Six of
Wands (Jupiter, expansiveness and growth, justice, fortune, in Leo, “I am,”
passionate, dramatic, noble, authoritative) in an upright position expresses
the celebration we feel when we have passed some test or successfully met a
challenge. My Six of Wands is
reversed, and it is flavoring my Two of Swords, so it is telling me that
success is there, circling around me.
I need to be careful for it will only stay there, circling around and
attempting to enter, for so much time, and then success will depart.
My 6-digit date
number is 3, the number that tells of a new creation out of the potential of
the Ace and the balance and polarity (and understanding of “distance between”)
of the 2.
My horoscopes: “Connect with the stabilizing force of the day, Sagittarius. It's
important for you to keep at least one foot on the ground, as powerful and
intense emotions are likely to try to take over the scene. This is a good time
to do things with passion. Don't hold back. Whatever you do today, you need to
give it all or nothing. There is no room for any half-hearted attempts.”
And: “If you've been feeling excessively tired lately, it may be stress
that is building up within. Today's planetary aspect brings an added energy to
communication, and it would be wise to consider talking some of these stresses
out. Worry, anxiety, and fear are huge drains on physical and emotional health.
For some, exercise can alleviate some of this, and for others, talking is the
key. Find the most effective ways to rid yourself of such "energy
suckers," and help yourself to feel better.”
My Shadowscapes Insight is regarding the Seven of
Pentacles. “The peaches are ripe; a magickal
energy writhes in each lush globe.
To pluck them or no? Will
these peaches still sparkle with that living glow once taken from the tree, or
will they just become dull as the normal fruit in her basket?” From “Shadowscapes Companion.” This
card is telling me that now is the time to appreciate the fruits of my
labors. But I am also being
warned; don’t wait too long to decide, or the choice will no longer be there.
The day before
yesterday was an exciting day astronomically. There was an annular solar eclipse on Sunday, plus the New
Moon was at 7:47 pm Eastern that same night. The weekend’s eclipse is called an annular or “ring” eclipse
because the Moon passes directly in front of the Sun but will cover only 88% of
it; this is because the eclipse occurs just one day after the Moon reaches
apogee, the most distant point in its orbit around Earth.
Astrologically,
the eclipse occured at 0 degrees and 21 minutes of Gemini, affecting people
born with personal planets and points at approximately 25 to 30 degrees of the
Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, and Aquarius) and approximately 0 to 5
degrees of the Mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, and Pisces) most
significantly. And since I am a
Sagittarius born on the cusp with Scorpio, with Taurus as my rising sign and
Scorpio as my Moon sign, this one affected and is still affecting me.
Interestingly
enough, we will have a lunar eclipse on June 4, 2012 at 14 degrees and 14
minutes of Sagittarius and Gemini, affecting people born with personal planets
and points at approximately 9 to 19 degrees of the Mutable signs (Gemini,
Virgo, Sagittarius, and Pisces), which includes me.
LOL, it’s gonna
be a bit crazy, eh? And I wonder
if this is partially the reason I am feeling a bit disconnected. With two vacations in a row, and then
my belly dance class having a performance, I’ve been very much focused on my physical,
mundane world. My inbox is full, and
I’ve had to put aside much of the work I was doing on my Third Degree
assignment until yesterday.
However, the big stuff is over, and I am already attempting to reconnect
with my Degree Training.
But spiritually,
I feel as if I’ve lost something.
And I’m talking personally here, because my Degree Training has me
connected to others, has me assisting others and has me empowering others in an
exciting way. I am connected to my
Coven and I am effective there, and I am pleased with my progress.
Somehow, I’ve
lost my connection to the background hum of the energies of Nature. I’ve stopped sensing the essences of
the Sacred Feminine and the Sacred Masculine. I am still performing my usual personal daily rituals, but
they are not bringing me the fulfillment that they have brought in the past;
instead they feel empty. The words
are still important and right; it is me, not the words or rituals, that is the
problem. The alchemic process of Distillation seems to have stalled, and I
wonder why.
I have not
experienced a true Dark Night of the Soul in a while. It appears that a Dark Night has snuck up on me, while I
wasn’t looking. I am not yet in
the position to deal with this Dark Night now; I’ve got to catch up first. The light at the end of the tunnel is
that I am not panicking. I will
get my tasks and responsibilities in order, and then I will deal with this Dark
Night.
I actually feel
a bit better just through admitting this to myself.
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