Two of
Swords/Nine of Wands. The Two of Swords (Moon,
feelings and emotions, illusion, imagination, in Libra, “We are,” partnerships,
balance, cooperation) represents a time of not looking or of shutting out the
world. The serenity of this card
happens because we choose to not receive or acknowledge as valid the
information that comes to us from the outside, or maybe because we choose to
not listen at all, whether the information is valid or not. Some see this card as representing an
armed peace, a peace created by receiving only a limited amount of information. Sometimes we need to unplug, just so we
can stop the stress loop. The Nine of Wands (Moon, feelings and emotions, illusion,
imagination, in Sagittarius, “I seek,” philosophic, fun-loving, adventurous,
blundering) tells us that the final challenge approaches, and we need to ready
ourselves so we can guard our assets.
This card also tells of wisdom . . . wisdom that comes at a high price.
My
Thoth cards are The Moon and the Knight of Disks. The Moon of the Tarot Major Arcana
corresponds with Water (cold/binds and wet/adapts, emotional and sensitive
energy that strives to stay the same), Pisces (“I believe,” feeling, suffering,
soul growth, duality), Qof (the back of the head), and the Path between Malkuth
(the physical world of action and physical, outer reality) and Netzach (the
stimulating factors of emotion and inspiration), is about feelings and emotions
and instincts and the subconscious.
This card tells of falsehood and illusion and the Dark Night of Soul, and
that is just about where I am right now.
Crowley also sees this card as talking about magick and mystery; they
are also difficult to pin down and define, but they are good. The Knights of
the Thoth Tarot are actually the Kings.
The King of Disks (cusp of Aries, “I want,” action oriented, assertive,
competitive, and Taurus, “I have,” sensual, stubborn, cautious, physically
oriented) is the expert on physical world manifestation of all kinds. He is good at managing physical world
resources, but he focuses a lot on the business end of things. The thing about that kind of focus is
that it becomes narrowed into the planning. These two cards together remind me that having lots of money
brings the illusion of happiness, but happiness happens whether we have money
or we don’t. The nice thing is
that unlike The Moon, my Knight is well grounded into reality. Between the two cards, I should have a
nice balance.
My
Legacy cards are the Nine of Wands reversed (Bookends!), flavored by The
Tower. Eeep! The Legacy Nine of Wands in an upright
position tells us that while events thus far have taken their toll, we need to
gather our resolve for the final push.
Since this card is reversed, I may be at the end of my reserve of
resolve, but the challenge may be winding down as well. My reversed Nine of Wands is being
flavored by an uncomfortably active card, The Tower. The Tower
(Fire (hot/separates and dry/shapes, and spontaneous, impulsive, energetic
change), Mars (action, spontaneity, aggression, drive), Phe (mouth or speech),
and the Path between Hod (which provides analysis and communication) and
Netzach (which offers the stimulating factors of emotion and inspiration)) is
one of the Major Arcana cards that talks of adjustments. This one tells of a violent or
explosive correction in the way things are going that usually happens after
more gentle corrections don’t bring the needed result. I do understand what this card is
about. Everything I’ve worked
toward and believed in have just been totally toppled, and boy, was that an
uncomfortable experience. In fact,
perhaps the energies of this card are the reason why my resolve is ebbed to a
low point. The thing I need to
remember is that the destruction caused by The Tower is actually clearing away
the old and expired, so new growth can begin.
More
about my Bookends card, the Nine of Wands. This card often reminds us that our life experiences, both
the joyful ones and the difficult ones, prepare us for the next challenge. The Nine of Wands reminds us that
sometimes drawing that line in the sand makes us find the strength to do what
needs to be done. We might not
have accomplished so much if we didn’t set that standard. The Legacy Tarot sees the Nine of Wands
as representing the saying “what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.” The Llewellyn Welsh Nine of Wands tells
us that the time has come to anticipate a challenge, and prepare our defenses
to stand against it. This is the
discipline of the seasoned warrior who has been knocked down to the ground in
many ways, and thus he can anticipate where the next attack will come
from. This is the sentinel who
watches the walls, gazes into the darkness with the eyes that can tell the
difference between a harmless shadow and an approaching danger. If reversed, the Nine of Wands could be
warning us to rethink our position.
Perhaps we don’t have the strength we think we have, or perhaps the
strength is there but the challenge is not as strong as we believe it to
be. Or it could be that old habits
and addictions are creeping back into control, without our even knowing
it. A reversed Nine of Wands
reminds us to heed the warnings, for it looks like we are not seeing possible
consequences and will be caught off guard.
My
6-digit date number is 4, the number of depth and stability.
My
horoscopes: “New ideas that you have been studying over the past few days might
have turned your mind in a different direction, Sagittarius. Thus, you are
shifting away from the concepts that you've always accepted toward other ideas
that you may have just learned. This could lead to projects of your own,
perhaps involving writing or speaking. Open and honest communication with a
lover might lead to an intimate evening together. Expect some intense
conversation, among other things!”
And: “The
time has come to take important decisions for yourself, but also for your
family ties. You feel that there is a strong and dynamic flow in the air today.
You can utilize this flow to your advantage and make your entourage benefit
from it too. It will also enable you to think about new objectives.”
I am in
the midst of dealing with a huge and painful Dark Night of the Soul. This one has struck home, and is
happening in the e-Community I have called my spiritual home for more than 11
years. Thankfully I am being
supported and advised by both my High Priestess and my dear Mentor (a Third
Degree Initiated Priestess), but I am still attempting to heal from angry words.
I do
understand that a Dark Night is to be expected immediately prior to a big
advancement, and since I am moving toward my Third Degree Initiation in the
very near future, this one does not surprise me, as painful as it is. I understand the purpose of this Dark
Night; it is causing me to make absolutely sure that I wish to formally
dedicate myself to my spiritual Path and to my Coven in this deeper and more
intense way. This Dark Night has also reminded me in
a good way, despite its ongoing state, that I am not alone. Yes, I need to find my way through this
Darkness in a solitary way, but I do have a cheering section, urging me onward.
I do feel that I have finally
reached the beginning of the back end of this painful time.
Don’t
like this feeling; want it to end.
It is up to me to end it, for I can’t control the thoughts, words or
actions of others, I can only control my response to them. Each and every response I am choosing
is being chosen with the intent to harm none, in perfect love and trust.
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