Ace of Wands/The Hanged Man reversed. What great cards for the starting day of a vacation! Things have the potential to move quickly today, and there is a potential for increased excitement, health and vitality. The only thing I need to remember is that Fire energy can be unpredictable, so I had better keep a bucket of water handy. But today, being laid back won’t get anything done.
My Thoth card is the Princess of Disks reversed. In the upright position, Crowley sees this card as representing the presence of the purest of feminine energies. She is Earth of Earth, and that means that anything she touches will be influenced by the purest of Earthy energies, whether Air, Fire or Water is its makeup. Since the card is reversed, I am being told that the application of pure Earth energies is not what I need today; there just might be too much of it already.
Family vacation starts this evening, and I am looking forward to a week with my awesome in-laws in Cape May. I will be back up for a couple of days during the week, and then back down for another long weekend.
From “Alchemy For Dummies”:
The Three Marriages in Alchemy
Some alchemists claim that three conjunctions in alchemy correspond to the Three Magisteriums or accomplisments of the Great Work. The first marriage in the work of transformation is the Lunar Marriage or unito mentalis, Latin for “union in the mind.” This marriage occurs when the soul separates itself from the body or when the alchemist becomes conscious of these as two separate entities. This occurs when the soul and the spirit unite and become separated from the body. It is like a voluntary rejection or death of the body in relation to the united soul and spirit.
The second or Solar Marriage occurs when the united soul and spirit (the unio mentalis) unites with the body, which has now been completely purified by the spiritual or solar energies. The third and final union is the Stellar Marriage in which the body-soul-spirit unites with the unus mudus (the One World).
Cool, huh?!
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Friday, August 7, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The Wheel of Fortune reversed/Three of Cups reversed. Today I am being told that I have the opportunity to have an impact on whatever Fate has in store for me. This may enable me to lessen the sudden impact of any events coming my way, however, this will be a solitary endeavor, as the energies of the day will not encourage my connection to the group. Plus, do I really want to meddle with Fate?
My Thoth card is the Nine of Disks reversed. The Nine of Disks represents “Gain” and it tells of an unemotional tallying of the fruits of ones labors, and of an awareness that ones position is more solid because of those labors. However, the card is reversed, so today will not be about the perception of a solid foundation or of having done ones homework and thus, being ready for anything.
I am finding it easier and easier to tap into this new awareness. I have come to realize that finding these kinds of things is a daunting task, mainly because there really is no way for someone else to explain exactly what these types of things are, how they feel, and how to access them. We each need to stumble around in the dark at first, until we find the doorway for the first time, and we need to “leave a light on” so that we can find our way back again. I see now that everything that Archangel Uriel has presented to me, from way back to the first time he appeared through all the distressing meditations and through the transformations caused by the incredible energy jolts (kind of like Reiki attunements!) that Uriel passed to me, has been preparing me for this moment.
Logically, what I am doing is rebuilding the bridge to my right brain, the seat of all that is intuitive, subjective and holistic, that was destroyed as a side effect of the civilizing process that humans have undergone. I am beginning to relearn how to experience the world beyond the physical, and progress is very exciting!! Even though it is very difficult for me to describe the marvelous things that are happening and the incredible skills that I am acquiring, this journal does act as not only a record of my experiences, but a bookmark of sorts, for as I struggle to find the words to describe these effects, I am placing a metaphysical orange traffic cone exactly where they happen, so that I can jump right to them next time.
This morning, after performing my usual shield strengthening, chakra cleansing/balancing and consecration meditation, I took a moment to look at a tree, and then attempted to switch on this new awareness. Easy-peasy, there it was. I don’t know exactly in detail what I am sensing yet, or how I can use what I am sensing, but that will come, I am certain. I also was able to see the egg shaped mental/emotional aura around someone! The light was perfect and the background was the right color, and I did not see any colors in the aura, just the shape. But this is a first for me.
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My Thoth card is the Nine of Disks reversed. The Nine of Disks represents “Gain” and it tells of an unemotional tallying of the fruits of ones labors, and of an awareness that ones position is more solid because of those labors. However, the card is reversed, so today will not be about the perception of a solid foundation or of having done ones homework and thus, being ready for anything.
I am finding it easier and easier to tap into this new awareness. I have come to realize that finding these kinds of things is a daunting task, mainly because there really is no way for someone else to explain exactly what these types of things are, how they feel, and how to access them. We each need to stumble around in the dark at first, until we find the doorway for the first time, and we need to “leave a light on” so that we can find our way back again. I see now that everything that Archangel Uriel has presented to me, from way back to the first time he appeared through all the distressing meditations and through the transformations caused by the incredible energy jolts (kind of like Reiki attunements!) that Uriel passed to me, has been preparing me for this moment.
Logically, what I am doing is rebuilding the bridge to my right brain, the seat of all that is intuitive, subjective and holistic, that was destroyed as a side effect of the civilizing process that humans have undergone. I am beginning to relearn how to experience the world beyond the physical, and progress is very exciting!! Even though it is very difficult for me to describe the marvelous things that are happening and the incredible skills that I am acquiring, this journal does act as not only a record of my experiences, but a bookmark of sorts, for as I struggle to find the words to describe these effects, I am placing a metaphysical orange traffic cone exactly where they happen, so that I can jump right to them next time.
This morning, after performing my usual shield strengthening, chakra cleansing/balancing and consecration meditation, I took a moment to look at a tree, and then attempted to switch on this new awareness. Easy-peasy, there it was. I don’t know exactly in detail what I am sensing yet, or how I can use what I am sensing, but that will come, I am certain. I also was able to see the egg shaped mental/emotional aura around someone! The light was perfect and the background was the right color, and I did not see any colors in the aura, just the shape. But this is a first for me.
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Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Knight of Swords reversed/Page of Wands. The Knight of Swords is a confident person who will use any means necessary to accomplish his goal, without allowing compassion or pity to cloud his judgment. I am being told today that I should *not* be this Knight, nor should I allow his influences, should they appear within my day, to have an effect on me. Instead, I should allow myself to be filled with a passion for life, for living, and for the experiences brought to me through the day, even if (or maybe because) I do not understand them.
My Thoth card is the Four of Cups. Crowley calls this card “Luxury” and sees its energies as the Lord of Pleasure. Allowing an indulgence in pleasure is all well and good, as long as I remember the tendency of being sated to morph into stagnation.
My horoscope: “‘Expect the unexpected’ is your current mantra, and a very wise one at that. Some conflicting celestial energies cause a hoo-hah that needs your wise and discerning eye. These energies aren't all just sturm und drang, however -- they're also bringing about some pretty significant (and welcome) life changes. Get your financial ducks in a row before the shakedown begins, and you'll be sitting pretty.” And: “You should find that you have an extra amount of creative energy at this time, dear Sagittarius, and you should do what you can to make this force work for you. There is a time and space for everything, and now is the time to work together with your higher self to channel some of the artist within you. Don't let your self-doubt keep you from using the creative force that is brewing inside you.”
This is the second day in a row that one of my horoscopes has mentioned the potential of a reward for the hard work and the tightening of belts that has been the rule of the day of late. Maybe things are finally starting to turn around for us. *crosses fingers
I had an interesting experience yesterday. I felt a little off when I woke up yesterday morning, not sick or tired or anything like that, but just different in some way. Nothing unusual besides that strange feeling occurred at first, but I found that during the day I would occasionally notice a similar effect to the other day, when I stepped outside at lunch and for a moment felt like there was another layer of awareness or perception over what I was seeing with my physical eyes. This time, however, the effect that I experienced was not overlaid onto all that I was seeing; rather, it was being selectively applied to specific items/entities within my field of vision. Also, this time the effect did not cease once I noticed it, and instead seemed to strengthen and solidify with my awareness. For instance, at lunch, while I was walking down the stairs I noticed this effect had appeared over the sight of two girls who were walking down the stairs before me. I focused on the effect and locked into it, and realized that I could see their auras, stretching more than a foot from their bodies, and I was able to maintain my connection to their auras as we continued down the flights of stairs.
The most dramatic experiences were while I was driving to my dance class last night. I noticed several instances where objects that I see all the time appeared suddenly different in some way, different enough to catch my eye and put me on alert although my eyes could find no obvious differences. The setting sun was riveting, and every time I looked at it as I drove to Butler, I tried to figure out what was different from any other sunset that I had watched, without success. It reached the point where it seemed that I was feeling the rays of the sun and the solar wind pressing against my chest, with the same kind of warm pressure that I experienced when Uriel touched me. I passed a grove of trees that created a dark patch of shade, and suddenly that particular patch of darkness beneath that particular grove of trees seemed to pop out, and I could not help but remember the time that Cernunnos told me that He was in the shadows beneath the trees. I passed a stream that glistened silver in the ambient light, shaded in part by overhanging branches; that silver light reflecting on the dappled surface of the stream popped out at me. My words are not adequately describing what I was experiencing, and this is quite frustrating to document, but I can still see that sun and that moon later in the evening, and feel the effects they had on me.
As I drove to my class, I tried to figure out what was happening. I really felt that the difference in perception was caused by the fact that for some reason I had become super-aware of the energy signature or pattern of those particular items. This “seeing” or “awareness” or “perception” had nothing to do with my physical senses. No, that is not correct, in reality my physical eyes and their ability to see were acting as vehicles for this awareness. I am a physical being after all, that exists primarily in the physical world, so any perception that I have or gain of other realms would be tied to the physical world and my physical senses. Especially in the beginning, as I am first experiencing this kind of perception, and adding the experiences regarding this kind of perception to my personal “pattern catalogue” that will enable me to recognize this perception when it happens again, and maybe even enable me to initiate it, physical sight may very well be a necessary part of these incidences, at least until I better understand this ability.
I realized that I was “feeling” (for lack of a better word) the sun, feeling it along my shoulders and across my heart, but not feeling the pressure on my skin but rather feeling something within me. The shadows beneath the grove of trees I felt as well, but in the area of my navel, and the silver light on the water I seemed to feel along my forehead. Each of these sensations was different; the sun felt warm, the shadows felt heavy but with an ambient temperature, and the silver light on the water seemed to expand as I touched it with my awareness, and was slightly cool.
Later, as I drove home, I was blessed with the gorgeous sight of the nearly full moon, its edges softened to a creamy glow by the humidity in the air, and once again I felt an effect, but this one seemed to be occurring within my brain and my mind and my awareness. I connected with the unknown, and for once I reveled in its beauty and mystery, rather than trying to understand its source. For once I did not need to know why or how or when, but rather I accepted with joy and serenity the fact that sometimes we are not meant to know and understand the causes. We are only meant to surrender to the effects.
I woke this morning with a headache, as if I had a hangover. Maybe I did have a hangover, an “energy awareness” hangover. I am excited to see what comes next.
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My Thoth card is the Four of Cups. Crowley calls this card “Luxury” and sees its energies as the Lord of Pleasure. Allowing an indulgence in pleasure is all well and good, as long as I remember the tendency of being sated to morph into stagnation.
My horoscope: “‘Expect the unexpected’ is your current mantra, and a very wise one at that. Some conflicting celestial energies cause a hoo-hah that needs your wise and discerning eye. These energies aren't all just sturm und drang, however -- they're also bringing about some pretty significant (and welcome) life changes. Get your financial ducks in a row before the shakedown begins, and you'll be sitting pretty.” And: “You should find that you have an extra amount of creative energy at this time, dear Sagittarius, and you should do what you can to make this force work for you. There is a time and space for everything, and now is the time to work together with your higher self to channel some of the artist within you. Don't let your self-doubt keep you from using the creative force that is brewing inside you.”
This is the second day in a row that one of my horoscopes has mentioned the potential of a reward for the hard work and the tightening of belts that has been the rule of the day of late. Maybe things are finally starting to turn around for us. *crosses fingers
I had an interesting experience yesterday. I felt a little off when I woke up yesterday morning, not sick or tired or anything like that, but just different in some way. Nothing unusual besides that strange feeling occurred at first, but I found that during the day I would occasionally notice a similar effect to the other day, when I stepped outside at lunch and for a moment felt like there was another layer of awareness or perception over what I was seeing with my physical eyes. This time, however, the effect that I experienced was not overlaid onto all that I was seeing; rather, it was being selectively applied to specific items/entities within my field of vision. Also, this time the effect did not cease once I noticed it, and instead seemed to strengthen and solidify with my awareness. For instance, at lunch, while I was walking down the stairs I noticed this effect had appeared over the sight of two girls who were walking down the stairs before me. I focused on the effect and locked into it, and realized that I could see their auras, stretching more than a foot from their bodies, and I was able to maintain my connection to their auras as we continued down the flights of stairs.
The most dramatic experiences were while I was driving to my dance class last night. I noticed several instances where objects that I see all the time appeared suddenly different in some way, different enough to catch my eye and put me on alert although my eyes could find no obvious differences. The setting sun was riveting, and every time I looked at it as I drove to Butler, I tried to figure out what was different from any other sunset that I had watched, without success. It reached the point where it seemed that I was feeling the rays of the sun and the solar wind pressing against my chest, with the same kind of warm pressure that I experienced when Uriel touched me. I passed a grove of trees that created a dark patch of shade, and suddenly that particular patch of darkness beneath that particular grove of trees seemed to pop out, and I could not help but remember the time that Cernunnos told me that He was in the shadows beneath the trees. I passed a stream that glistened silver in the ambient light, shaded in part by overhanging branches; that silver light reflecting on the dappled surface of the stream popped out at me. My words are not adequately describing what I was experiencing, and this is quite frustrating to document, but I can still see that sun and that moon later in the evening, and feel the effects they had on me.
As I drove to my class, I tried to figure out what was happening. I really felt that the difference in perception was caused by the fact that for some reason I had become super-aware of the energy signature or pattern of those particular items. This “seeing” or “awareness” or “perception” had nothing to do with my physical senses. No, that is not correct, in reality my physical eyes and their ability to see were acting as vehicles for this awareness. I am a physical being after all, that exists primarily in the physical world, so any perception that I have or gain of other realms would be tied to the physical world and my physical senses. Especially in the beginning, as I am first experiencing this kind of perception, and adding the experiences regarding this kind of perception to my personal “pattern catalogue” that will enable me to recognize this perception when it happens again, and maybe even enable me to initiate it, physical sight may very well be a necessary part of these incidences, at least until I better understand this ability.
I realized that I was “feeling” (for lack of a better word) the sun, feeling it along my shoulders and across my heart, but not feeling the pressure on my skin but rather feeling something within me. The shadows beneath the grove of trees I felt as well, but in the area of my navel, and the silver light on the water I seemed to feel along my forehead. Each of these sensations was different; the sun felt warm, the shadows felt heavy but with an ambient temperature, and the silver light on the water seemed to expand as I touched it with my awareness, and was slightly cool.
Later, as I drove home, I was blessed with the gorgeous sight of the nearly full moon, its edges softened to a creamy glow by the humidity in the air, and once again I felt an effect, but this one seemed to be occurring within my brain and my mind and my awareness. I connected with the unknown, and for once I reveled in its beauty and mystery, rather than trying to understand its source. For once I did not need to know why or how or when, but rather I accepted with joy and serenity the fact that sometimes we are not meant to know and understand the causes. We are only meant to surrender to the effects.
I woke this morning with a headache, as if I had a hangover. Maybe I did have a hangover, an “energy awareness” hangover. I am excited to see what comes next.
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Friday, July 31, 2009
The High Priestess/Death reversed. Sounds like it will be a day filled with mysteries, mysteries that are not meant to be understood as far as the questions “how?” and “why?.” The High Priestess is about keeping the physical and the subconscious worlds separate but keeping them balanced as well; she is about keeping one foot in the conscious world and one in the subconscious world and being able to switch back and forth at will. She is the third phase of the alchemic Sacred Marriage, which I am trying to attain. She is telling me that the way to that Sacred Marriage lies through my Shadow, and that I would be better off not bringing too much luggage, or I will be slowed down and unable to just let things happen.
My Thoth card for today is the Five of Cups reversed. Crowley calls this card “Disappointment,” and in an upright position it tells of the disturbing of placid waters, which always churns up some goop from the bottom. I keep thinking of my mother telling me when I was a child acting silly that if you keep being silly you will end up crying. Thankfully, this card is reversed, which tells me that even though life is filled with disappointments, I have the ability today to turn lemons into lemonade.
I taught my personal energy workshop at Off the Beaten Path last night, and had another wonderful session. Elena has been recommending my workshops to her Wicca 101 students, and so far each of the attendees of my workshops have been wonderful!! I also have been able to help out some people within two separate venues with information about angels that I found while researching Archangel Uriel. *grin* I guess He is still lurking around somewhere. *looks both ways nervously after describing Uriel as “lurking”* As crazy-busy and chaotic as the energies of this week have been, I will officially walk away from this week tonight, when I leave for Cape May, with a sense of accomplishment.
How fitting it is that I spend today examining the fruits of my labors thus far this year, for today is Lammas eve, and tomorrow is the Sabbat of Lammas or Lughnassadh. This Sabbat is a High Sabbat (because it is at the peak of the energies of the season) and a cross-quarter that celebrates the First Harvest of corn and grain. Cornbread; yum!!! The word “Lughnassadh” is Celtic for “gathering in the name of Lugh,” and although the sun most likely will not be out much tomorrow, I will be focusing on the correspondences of the sun, and of Lugh, the “Jack of all Trades and Master of All” of the Celtic Pantheon as I *crosses fingers* work in the garden tomorrow.
I’m counting the minutes until I leave. 399 . . . 398 . . . 397 . . . .
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My Thoth card for today is the Five of Cups reversed. Crowley calls this card “Disappointment,” and in an upright position it tells of the disturbing of placid waters, which always churns up some goop from the bottom. I keep thinking of my mother telling me when I was a child acting silly that if you keep being silly you will end up crying. Thankfully, this card is reversed, which tells me that even though life is filled with disappointments, I have the ability today to turn lemons into lemonade.
I taught my personal energy workshop at Off the Beaten Path last night, and had another wonderful session. Elena has been recommending my workshops to her Wicca 101 students, and so far each of the attendees of my workshops have been wonderful!! I also have been able to help out some people within two separate venues with information about angels that I found while researching Archangel Uriel. *grin* I guess He is still lurking around somewhere. *looks both ways nervously after describing Uriel as “lurking”* As crazy-busy and chaotic as the energies of this week have been, I will officially walk away from this week tonight, when I leave for Cape May, with a sense of accomplishment.
How fitting it is that I spend today examining the fruits of my labors thus far this year, for today is Lammas eve, and tomorrow is the Sabbat of Lammas or Lughnassadh. This Sabbat is a High Sabbat (because it is at the peak of the energies of the season) and a cross-quarter that celebrates the First Harvest of corn and grain. Cornbread; yum!!! The word “Lughnassadh” is Celtic for “gathering in the name of Lugh,” and although the sun most likely will not be out much tomorrow, I will be focusing on the correspondences of the sun, and of Lugh, the “Jack of all Trades and Master of All” of the Celtic Pantheon as I *crosses fingers* work in the garden tomorrow.
I’m counting the minutes until I leave. 399 . . . 398 . . . 397 . . . .
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
Nine of Wands/Eight of Wands reversed. Today will contain a need for inner strength, stamina and the will to go on, and I need to remember that whenever I need that kind of fortitude, the first place to look for it is within me, although I might need to look carefully for this kind of fortitude only shows itself when it is needed. The difficulties may present themselves to me, but these issues *do* have solutions. Unfortunately, those solutions may not be in the form of a sudden burst of energy that clears the air.
My Thoth card for today is the Eight of Cups. Two Eights today; I guess the energies of that number are as important as the card itself. The number Eight represents the reaction to the pause or stagnation or degradation of the Seven cards in an attempt to counter or end what the Seven brings.
I did my first Reiki I attunement last night. I went to Pat’s house to do it. We spent a little time watching an instructional gypsy belly dance video, and then I did the attunement. Pat is a naturopath and homoeopath, and does energy work regularly, so I thought she would be a perfect “first victim” for me, and I was not wrong.
I needed a “cheat sheet” but the entire process felt smooth and natural. I could feel Pat supporting and encouraging me throughout the process, and when I was tapping the symbols into her crown and her hands, the heat from both my hands and her hands was sudden and intense. I also strongly sensed the merging of our auras; what an intimate experience! I was not surprised to find that Pat has managed to unconsciously (or consciously) achieve what I have been trying to do for weeks now: she has infused her Mental/Emotional Body with love, a love that is present within her aura whether she is consciously sending it or not. As soon as I entered her aura and began the MCO, even before I placed my hands on her shoulders to initiate contact, I could feel that love surrounding me like a blanket on a cold day. I wonder if this is what makes Pat such a skilled healer. It is encouraging to me to experience first hand the power of this kind of caring and the immediacy of its effect when it touches someone; perhaps I needed to be on the receiving end of this kind of gift in order to have the pieces come together in my own mind that are necessary to make this happen within my own aura.
Even before the attunement was completed and I began the grounding and separation process, as I smoothed down Pat’s aura I could feel what seemed like static electricity along the outer edge of her Mental/Emotional Body. As I moved my hands along that outer edge, there was a crackling sound and sparks sprayed out from my hands and danced along the skin of that auric layer, like cloud to cloud branch lightning in a thunderstorm. There was no pain or burning or pressure of any kind, just a blue-white shower of sparks spreading from the place where each of my hands rested on and rubbed against the auric layer. When I mentioned it to Pat, she told me that she could feel my hands rubbing against her aura through the entire attunement process. As I demonstrated some of the hand positions for self-application of Reiki on my own body, Pat told me that she could feel the pressure of my hands on her own aura and her body.
What an amazing yet serene experience this attunement was! But as expected, I was awake for a while once I got home, high on the energy of Reiki.
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My Thoth card for today is the Eight of Cups. Two Eights today; I guess the energies of that number are as important as the card itself. The number Eight represents the reaction to the pause or stagnation or degradation of the Seven cards in an attempt to counter or end what the Seven brings.
I did my first Reiki I attunement last night. I went to Pat’s house to do it. We spent a little time watching an instructional gypsy belly dance video, and then I did the attunement. Pat is a naturopath and homoeopath, and does energy work regularly, so I thought she would be a perfect “first victim” for me, and I was not wrong.
I needed a “cheat sheet” but the entire process felt smooth and natural. I could feel Pat supporting and encouraging me throughout the process, and when I was tapping the symbols into her crown and her hands, the heat from both my hands and her hands was sudden and intense. I also strongly sensed the merging of our auras; what an intimate experience! I was not surprised to find that Pat has managed to unconsciously (or consciously) achieve what I have been trying to do for weeks now: she has infused her Mental/Emotional Body with love, a love that is present within her aura whether she is consciously sending it or not. As soon as I entered her aura and began the MCO, even before I placed my hands on her shoulders to initiate contact, I could feel that love surrounding me like a blanket on a cold day. I wonder if this is what makes Pat such a skilled healer. It is encouraging to me to experience first hand the power of this kind of caring and the immediacy of its effect when it touches someone; perhaps I needed to be on the receiving end of this kind of gift in order to have the pieces come together in my own mind that are necessary to make this happen within my own aura.
Even before the attunement was completed and I began the grounding and separation process, as I smoothed down Pat’s aura I could feel what seemed like static electricity along the outer edge of her Mental/Emotional Body. As I moved my hands along that outer edge, there was a crackling sound and sparks sprayed out from my hands and danced along the skin of that auric layer, like cloud to cloud branch lightning in a thunderstorm. There was no pain or burning or pressure of any kind, just a blue-white shower of sparks spreading from the place where each of my hands rested on and rubbed against the auric layer. When I mentioned it to Pat, she told me that she could feel my hands rubbing against her aura through the entire attunement process. As I demonstrated some of the hand positions for self-application of Reiki on my own body, Pat told me that she could feel the pressure of my hands on her own aura and her body.
What an amazing yet serene experience this attunement was! But as expected, I was awake for a while once I got home, high on the energy of Reiki.
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Seven of Swords reversed/King of Wands reversed. Someone might be using cunning and trickery today to usurp something from me, but it won’t work. This cunning and trickery could have something to do with a leader who has a taste for adrenaline and who tends to impose his own will even when the situation calls for restraint. Hmmmm . . . wonder who that might be?
My Thoth card for today is the Eight of Disks. Crowley calls this card “Prudence” and says that it is about putting something away for a rainy day. I must strive to be easygoing and stable today, and to not waste my resources right now, for they may be needed in the future.
I felt drawn to pull two extra cards today, and threw the Six of Pentacles reversed and Death reversed. Ho boy, all of these cards are accurate for this topsy-turvy day. I am being reminded that both giving and receiving are important in all situations, but I must be very careful that I don’t give so much of myself that I end up depleted in some way. And perhaps, since I have not yet lost my temper, I have begun to pass the time of active transformation and have already begun anew!
Interestingly enough, as I stepped outside to go to lunch, for a split second it seemed as if I was seeing the world through an “overlay” of energy awareness. It was if I had on glasses that allowed me to “see” and sense in every way not only the physical world but the energy “echoes” of everything in the physical world. I am not describing this awareness correctly, but I can remember it in detail, even though the awareness only lasted for a second. I have been trying to recreate the awareness, but I am having trouble, maybe because I keep trying to recreate it within my physical eyes and their ability to see. The awareness was placed over the physical seeing, and it seems to have come from somewhere in my brain, rather than from my eyes, and as near as I can pinpoint where I remember the awareness originated, the sensations were in the front of my brain but below my eyes. Hmmmm . . . I need to look at a map of the brain.
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My Thoth card for today is the Eight of Disks. Crowley calls this card “Prudence” and says that it is about putting something away for a rainy day. I must strive to be easygoing and stable today, and to not waste my resources right now, for they may be needed in the future.
I felt drawn to pull two extra cards today, and threw the Six of Pentacles reversed and Death reversed. Ho boy, all of these cards are accurate for this topsy-turvy day. I am being reminded that both giving and receiving are important in all situations, but I must be very careful that I don’t give so much of myself that I end up depleted in some way. And perhaps, since I have not yet lost my temper, I have begun to pass the time of active transformation and have already begun anew!
Interestingly enough, as I stepped outside to go to lunch, for a split second it seemed as if I was seeing the world through an “overlay” of energy awareness. It was if I had on glasses that allowed me to “see” and sense in every way not only the physical world but the energy “echoes” of everything in the physical world. I am not describing this awareness correctly, but I can remember it in detail, even though the awareness only lasted for a second. I have been trying to recreate the awareness, but I am having trouble, maybe because I keep trying to recreate it within my physical eyes and their ability to see. The awareness was placed over the physical seeing, and it seems to have come from somewhere in my brain, rather than from my eyes, and as near as I can pinpoint where I remember the awareness originated, the sensations were in the front of my brain but below my eyes. Hmmmm . . . I need to look at a map of the brain.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
The Sun/Five of Cups reversed. Light and clarity after a foggy time of darkness! Sounds good to me. The ordeal of the fog is ended, war has turned to peace and discord to love. I need to remember that even though clouds may obscure my view, the sun is still rising in the morning. And today I might find that it is easier for me to turn my back on troublesome issues and look instead toward the positive.
My Thoth card for today is the Ten of Pentacles reversed. Alrightie, we are going backwards from the Princess of Pentacles yesterday, to the Ten of Pentacles reversed today. Taking both cards together, perhaps I am being told that while my focus on dealing with the issues within the earthly planes has peaked, I am not quite finished yet. The good thing about this is that the Ten card is considered an ending, and often attaining wealth causes stagnation; that will not be the case today.
Okay, so I ate like a pig this past weekend, but it was worth it; what an awesome weekend we had. Biking, beaching, drinking, eating and laughing, non-stop. Bagels, lox, cream cheese, onions and tomatoes, plus scrambled eggs, for brunch. Lobster salad and olives and crackers, baby back ribs, lobsters, king crab claws, white Jersey corn and freshly made cucumber salad. I had my first Grey Goose martini with blue cheese stuffed olives, and yum!! Now I know why my dear sister, Storm, loves them so much. Today I feel like I am getting back to normal. I’ve gotta be reeeeal careful because family vacation is coming soon, and that will certainly be a bad time for me, eating-wise. When I take into consideration the fact that I am being repeatedly told by my Patroness and Archangel Uriel that one of the things I need to do in order to “awaken” is to eat less, I can honestly say that I have my work cut out for me.
I read something in Alchemy for Dummies yesterday that really blew my mind! In the first chapter that deals with psychological alchemy, the concept of the Sacred Marriage was described. Now, what first made this jump out at me was the fact that my Lesson 2 work within the Historical Paganism Course deals with the concept of the evolution of the Sacred Marriage within Mesopotamian religions, so I can see why this term would seem to jump out at me. But then I read that within psychological alchemy, the Sacred Marriage can be broken down into three stages: the first stage involves creating an awareness that allows the separation of the physical self from the mental/emotional/spiritual self; the second stage involves a focus on the mental/emotional/spiritual self in order to be able to understand and work with that self; the third stage involves the reintegration of the mental/emotional/spiritual self with the physical self, in a way where awareness of both, in a separate but fluid and dynamically balanced fashion, can be maintained. Sound familiar???
I just love synchronicity!!! The Sun, indeed!!!
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My Thoth card for today is the Ten of Pentacles reversed. Alrightie, we are going backwards from the Princess of Pentacles yesterday, to the Ten of Pentacles reversed today. Taking both cards together, perhaps I am being told that while my focus on dealing with the issues within the earthly planes has peaked, I am not quite finished yet. The good thing about this is that the Ten card is considered an ending, and often attaining wealth causes stagnation; that will not be the case today.
Okay, so I ate like a pig this past weekend, but it was worth it; what an awesome weekend we had. Biking, beaching, drinking, eating and laughing, non-stop. Bagels, lox, cream cheese, onions and tomatoes, plus scrambled eggs, for brunch. Lobster salad and olives and crackers, baby back ribs, lobsters, king crab claws, white Jersey corn and freshly made cucumber salad. I had my first Grey Goose martini with blue cheese stuffed olives, and yum!! Now I know why my dear sister, Storm, loves them so much. Today I feel like I am getting back to normal. I’ve gotta be reeeeal careful because family vacation is coming soon, and that will certainly be a bad time for me, eating-wise. When I take into consideration the fact that I am being repeatedly told by my Patroness and Archangel Uriel that one of the things I need to do in order to “awaken” is to eat less, I can honestly say that I have my work cut out for me.
I read something in Alchemy for Dummies yesterday that really blew my mind! In the first chapter that deals with psychological alchemy, the concept of the Sacred Marriage was described. Now, what first made this jump out at me was the fact that my Lesson 2 work within the Historical Paganism Course deals with the concept of the evolution of the Sacred Marriage within Mesopotamian religions, so I can see why this term would seem to jump out at me. But then I read that within psychological alchemy, the Sacred Marriage can be broken down into three stages: the first stage involves creating an awareness that allows the separation of the physical self from the mental/emotional/spiritual self; the second stage involves a focus on the mental/emotional/spiritual self in order to be able to understand and work with that self; the third stage involves the reintegration of the mental/emotional/spiritual self with the physical self, in a way where awareness of both, in a separate but fluid and dynamically balanced fashion, can be maintained. Sound familiar???
I just love synchronicity!!! The Sun, indeed!!!
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